Im sitting here alone on my bedroom floor
Hoping that its good,
What tomorrow has in store
Or the day after that
My time here is up
I have to leave soon
So i can live my life in a better tune
A better tomb
I cant die here
My body is tired
And apparently im queer?
This feels pretty good, to write what i feel
I joke, but seriously, before my fate’s sealed:
I know i can find it,
Its up on the shelf
Right where i left it the last time
i felt i that couldnt be with myself
The will to live, to be happy as well
Its hard to keep the light when i feel like im in hell
Its there though, its right here now, in my hands
Ive made the decision, for the moment, to stand
I hope that it lasts, i know it might not
But ill keep this reminder, these memories in my heart
Ill pilot my body in persue of a dream
However foolish they, or i think that may be
Myself, my love, and my memories are the only things ill 100% always have
Ill cherish this feeling and walk down the ave
A new, avenue, but ive been here before?
It looks so different, but ill remember it more
Alone is the word that i cant help but hate
Ive felt it for so long. Isnt it great? /s
Alone not of company, but a specific bond
People tell me it doesnt mean that much
Maybe, so i think what i really need, and desire in truth,
Is the sharing of happiness and eternal youth
The feeling, that is, and with a good person
Rid of labels, and well meaning, but empty promises of being certain
All i will truly ever need
Is a person to be close with in my life that likes me for all of me
And in return ill be that person for her, too, to see
Dont lock the door, the one with love on your heart
Ive felt it before, its one of the hardest parts
If you just keep it cracked, even pulled against the frame,
i can slide you some help, for each other we can do the same
You’re special to me, Im so glad that you came
No one is perfect, people can hurt each other with the things they do or say
Thats why forgiveness, understanding, and unconditional love, and moving forward is the way
What really matters is what you do after, anyway
I know you need space, i did too today
Just know that im still here, i wont get in your way
(but if i mess up, as im prone to do, please say)
I hope youll be here, too, when my eyes feel grey
Im always wishing that you have a good day
It will be okay
As i get older, i figure more and more out
About how i feel and the world that goes round
We all need someone to remind us that theres light
In those blinding dark moments when you really feel down
My seed of happiness, i can feel it starting to grow
Of my own will and my own accord
I cant wait to see you again
Because, to you, i can show (it)
Hikari
🌱💫
